I'm a woman, a woman is me

I'm a woman, a woman is me,
not one not two, but a 100 shades free
I laugh, i cry, I've loved I've lost
I've made too many mistakes and
paid the cost.

Once i was happy
and felt i was blessed,
a few moments later ,
with a man i was obsessed.
I thought love was enough
nothing else mattered,
looked into the mirror,
the mirror shattered.
I was the princess
everyone wanted to be,
who is this woman?
Why is she looking at me?
I picked up my dress
and ran till i fell.
How far i'd come, i couldn't tell.
I felt a little empty,
lonely and hollowed
turned around to see,
the girl hadn't followed.
She was weak i think
must have given up midway
i'm in some new place,
i must be okay.

So many known faces,
him, him and her
They were my friends once
did some fight occur?
Trying to remember,
these people from my past
too hard!when did i talk to them last?
Just then an angelic face came
towards me,
she was my best friend once ,
my partner my buddy.
We used to talk about life
and the dreams we shared
she asked how I've been,
she still cared.
I broke down and told her
I've changed a lot,
I've been obsessive, envious
and everything i was not.
She told me it's common,
a phase one must pass
to reach to the greener
portion of the grass.
She told me -keep going
the journey is long;
walking beside me,
she sang my favorite song.

This side looks good,
the journey seemed short
friendship is powerful
to myself i thought.
Turned to thank her,
for without her I'd die
just then i saw her
running off with a guy.

We women, we're weak,
vulnerable,independent and strong;
We jump within seconds
from right to wrong.
We love too much,
our hate is in excess
We let someone in and create a mess.
I am angry, hurt and
should totally judge her,
but i guess time
teaches us better.

Should i go back and find her?
I wonder how she's been.
No you must keep walking,
said a voice from within.
She'll find her way,
i did too
sources of strength
really aren't that few.

With the lessons in mind
a new journey begin
maybe a few mistakes,
but not the same ones again.

I'm a woman, a woman is me
not one not two, but a 100 shades free.

- Bhavna Jaidwal